Schizophrenia?

I was in the library,waiting for sayang to finish his exam.While waiting,i went online using his laptop and yes,I am so addicted to the website HowStuffWorks.I clicked onto the 'Random Articles' button and there pop out this one article about 'Deja Vu'.Wow.This is interesting,I told myself.And then,I went on reading the Deja Vu article untill at one point i saw this one word,Schizophrenia.It was a link to a HowStuffWorks Schizophrenia page.I open a new tab and let that Schizophrenia page to be in that tab.As I am waiting for the next page of Deja Vu to be fully completed,I read about Schizophrenia and to my shock,I think it has something to do with me.At least,most of the symptoms are related to me.Oh God,am I suffering from the mental ilness of schizophrenia?

What is schizophrenia?You guys must be asking yourself.I don't want to talk about it here.I don't want to be like an expert,trying to tell what the heck is schizophrenia.I will give you a link later and you could read it yourself.

Why did I said i suspected myself suffering from this mental illness?This is what is all about.

• Lack of self confidence
• Lack of emotions
• Colorless speaking tones
• Inappropriate reactions to events (such as laughing hysterically over a loss)
• A general loss of interest in life and the ability to experience pleasure

But what shock me is this sentence "Suicide. Between 20 - 50% of patients with schizophrenia attempt suicide and an estimated 9 - 13% of schizophrenics commit suicide."

Oh God.I am mentally disabled.Yes.

Link to HowStuffWorks of Schizophrenia -> HSWschizophrenia