Tik Tok (no no not Kesha song)

As for today, it would be the last day for me to update my blog. i hope i can update my blog when there is a wireless connection there in Germany and London). Tomorrow would be a very busy day for me! First the Akad Nikah ceremony that i have to attend (not mine, it’s my father’s friend's daughter who is getting married tomorrow) Then perhaps another last minute shopping for my one week trip to Europe.

Bag (checked!) Yeah! I’ve just finished packing my luggage just now.And also my big huge hand beg. Hehe. Love it love it! My hand beg has become so light now! hehe. Inside there, a novel by my love Irfan (he gave that novel to me titled 143 for ‘I Love You’. Aww~ How sweet right? Me love you too sayang!), my bonita purse that i got it for RM10 only, my pashmina and my makeup bag. :) Love it! Hehe. Everything that is needed to be cozy and enough for my flight of 7hours to Dubai. But i’ll add up some chargers and usb connection since there are usb plugs inside the aircraft. YAY! So, i’ll be heavier later. LOL.

To sayang Irfan, plesae do not cry.hehe. :) I’ll only be going for a week.or perhaps 9days. I am not that sure yet but I hope we can always keep in touch with the SMSes and also Facebook.Although the time differs, but you can SMS me anytime you want. And I will pay for the bills.You don’t have to worry about a thing here. :) I just love you. <3 Can’t wait to see you back again!

I’ll bring back some souvenirs to all of my painkillers! Because you are worth it!

Good day! Very Good day! :) (bukan iklan susu ok)

I had a very good day today! :) See, I told ya (in Facebook status) that i just can’t wait for Monday to come! I know today would be a great day after all. :)

Went to Sg. Gabai to meet my big brother, Erry. I wanted to meet him before I went to Germany. He is currently shooting his series of ‘Si Capek 3’ in a house near Sg. Gabai. A very big house owned by a very popular director in Malaysia. :) Guess who. Hehe.

We chatted and chatted. Laugh and being crazy. Together with a very special friend of mine. (I can’t say his/her name.Safety precautions.But Irfan knows him/her okay so jangan buat FITNAH) ;p I ate some roti canai with cheese and surprisingly mushrooms! Yuck. What is the world, a roti canai with mushrooms???? So not roti canai ok. So no original, so unoriginal. Yuck yuck yuck! Yuck2 pun makan habis jugak. HAHA. :P Korek all the mushrooms out then only can eat. :)

Went to Sg. Gabai. Last time I went there with Shezz and Waseem and that ‘person’. Like,3 years ago i guess. Wow. That time I just got to know Erry a little bit more personally. But he has some shooting for the drama Manjalara at that time. Yeah, so long ago.

Well, time flies so fast right? I’m going to Germany soon. Mas has already went back to Perth. Miss her! :(

Checked!

Yesterday me and my mum checked the condition of the hotel that we are staying in Germany. I wouldn’t call it as a HOTEL. It is more to like a training centre since my daddy will be attending a seminar sort of thing. So, the hotel is pretty dodgy. The surroundings are trees and TREES! But it is actually 9km from the airport and 7km from the… CITY. OH thank God we only stay there for 2 days.Thank God. :P

The hotel has a WiFi. But at the lobby only. Aiseh. And have to pay some more i guess. Aiyo. How come have to pay??????? Malaysian can give you FREE wireless and in Germany we have to pay? How would you detect? Or maybe there’s a password? And we have to pay for the password? Duh Germany..BIG DUHHHH!!!!!  Here in Malaysia even in MAMAK stall you can have FREE WiFi. Shame on you, Germanyyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!!!!!!! (Mad like hell)

So, yeah. Perhaps i can only SMS at Germany with Irfan. *sigh.a very big sigh*

Breakdown.

What will you do to a person who is so damn selfish? What will you do to a person who did not want to change even after a day of the arguments and discussions? What will you do to a person who you did what they wanted and at the end you will not get what you wanted from them?

For me, i will ditch them. Little by little. Until no feelings left.

Good bye.

Love Love Love.

It’s been a while kan? haha. Ceh. Baru je brapa hari tak update betul2. Well, just wanna tell everybody who is reading my post right now, I have already watched Valentines Day the movie and it was kinda suck. I mean, it was ok. It was packed with so many scenes and actors and actress. So the story for each actor and actress are short and confusing. The storyline are actually predictable. So damn predictable and plus, Taylor Swift can’t act. She sucks at acting. Just stay singing my dear Taylor. Do not act ever again,darling.

Had a great arguments and makeup.At One Utama. Haha. Well, i don’t want to talk about it ever again. Well see what is going to be happening next.

I am going to Germany –> Dubai –> London next week! Oh My God! It’s next week???? Time flies so fast. Sure i’ll be missing my Irfan but i can’t want to… SHOP!!!!!!! At London. :) Well, the emoticon should be like this :(:) Can you see? A non smily and a smily face. hehe.

Lovayava.

Sorry - Buckcherry

Oh I have a lot to say was thinking of my time away
I missed you and things weren't the same

Cause everything inside it never comes out right
And when I see you cry it makes me want to die

I'm sorry I'm bad I'm sorry you're blue
I'm sorry about all the things I said to you
And I know I can't take it back
I love how you kiss, I love all your sounds,
and baby the way you make my world go round
And I just wanted to say I'm sorry
This time I think I'm to blame
It's harder to get through the days
You get older and blame turns to shame

Every single day I think about how we came all this way
the sleepless nights and the tears you've cried
its never to late to make it right
all right sorry

I'm sorry baby
I'm sorry baby
yeah
I'm sorry

 

:)

Kampung pictures!

This is the creepy thingy that crawled onto my leg that night.

Gong Xi Fa Cai Holiday.

I just got back from Penang like in 2 hours ago. Finished kemas-kemas all the things and clean up the house just now.

At Penang it was very damn HOT! Hotter then KL i think. If only i have a thermometer, I would know the exact temperature there. I guess it does exceed 34 degree! Haha. Just because my kampung is near the sea, so it is hotter. My grandma says it’s the season of Kemarau. Oh oh. My Irfan told me that this kemarau will last up until May. Argh! :S

I have had some experienced back at my hometown. Even though I only stayed there for 3 days and 2 nights. First, the first night i was there, i slept at one of the bedrooms and saw a cat,walking onto the pillars. My grandma’s house does not have a shilling so we could see the beam and the roof up there. Suddenly, I saw a cat walking onto one beam to another. I said ‘miow’~ to the cat and the cat was kinda surprised to see me,still not asleep yet. Haha. :P Then, something crawling on my feet. I don’t have a clue what the heck it is. I used my hands and faster shoosh the creepy thing down. I don’t know what happen to that thing until i woke up and saw some yucky bangkai on the floor. I still don’t know what is it. Ew~

Oh yeah, Mak Long’s house is nearly 75% done. Masyitah,lepas ni kau dapat status banglo la rumah kau.haha. :P And one update about the wedding that will be happening in May; I am the official photographer. Even though I am actually not a photographer.haha. :P Oh my, I did screw myself this time right?

Well, Happy Chinese New Year. Even though a day late. :)

P/S: I will post the picture of that creepy thing here later.

Selfless/Selfish.

I just need one time to think. Am I selfless? Am I sacrificing my own self interest for others? I don’t really know. Am I selfish? Hell yeah I think. What do YOU think?

Past and present.

I hate his past. Really hate it the most. But i don’t know about his present. Am i going to be hating it as well? His past is full with fooled. Girls and also ex’s. Full with some negative things rather then positive ones. Mind me, this is not about what he has done. I mean, yes. He did those things but it is not what i meant. What  i meant is that i hate the way he is back then. Back then even before i personally know him. He is way to lean on things. WAAAAYY to lean. Even his friends backstab him and it’s alright with him. So, I hate his past but not all of it. There are most of the bad past has been layered by the good things he had done. And i hope he’d do the same while he’s with me.

But, I hate mine too. Well, some part of it. The part where …… Nah, I don’t want to talk about it here. To those who knew me, they knew why I hate my past so much and specifically referring about ‘that’ guy.

So, i hate both of us from the past. If you ever know me back then, you’d probably do not want to even enter my territory. I was different before. :)

You are lucky enough,tho. Cause that past teach me on how to behave today. How to think today and how to act,today.

Communication.

Communication is the key of everything possible. :) Without communication, it is a dead end. Who wants a dead end? I don’t really want it but sometimes, dead end is indeed,good.

If you are in love with your boyfriend, communication is the main thing to keep your relationship going on. Avoiding conversation especially the critical ones, will lead you to be in you own imaginary love life. Why do i say imaginary? It is because, once you are in a fight without any make up conversation, you will tend to imagine the things that your partner will do. See the key word here? IMAGINE. You will be keep on guessing and keep on saying words like ‘maybe,who cares..’ and it shows that you are not 100% knows what your partner is currently doing.

What am I blabbering here? Oh.Must be the effects of this flu medicine. Sigh.

Love is a battlefield.

‘We are young.Heartache to heartache we stand.No promises no demands.Love is a battlefield.’ I listen to this song in 13 going on 30 (if I’m not mistaken) movie starring Jennifer Garner. A very sweet and romantic but yet very impossible to be happening. ;)

Love is a battlefield. Yes it is. I totally agreed. Being is love is like you are equipped and ready. Your weapons are on you hands and are in a ready mode. Being in love excites everything around your world. Even a tiny bits of thing that looks normal,are abnormal to you. You fight with your own strength and most likely you will never give up. Believe me, no one will give up on love, ever. Once you said you are giving up, actually you are not ready yet with your armour. Get your gears done and you are in the battlefield of love again. The word battlefield here didn’t just give the meaning of wars and hatred. Sometimes, it means you are in a battlefield of saving your love life, or you are just in a battlefield of ‘LOVE’ and you just can’t let it out of your mind.

Being or falling in love are at one state where ALL of the people must have been in their outmost and outrageous life. Without love, i don’t think that there’s much that they can do. Not just love to their boyfriend/girlfriend but to best friends, families, God, country, other people, civilization, food and drinks and more. Love is really really universal. Talking about love doesn’t mean THE love. You know the ‘a boy and a girl’ love. Love is everything that we need in life. In order to stay alive, we must love ourselves first,right? So, love is something that could actually get us where we are today. Love is the greatest teacher of all time. Love is true, love is pure and love is everything.

Love your love before it’s too late. Perhaps, treat your love today What love? Anything! :)

<3 all my readers out there!

i-City!

Went to i-city today with Mas,Kat and her ‘beaufriend’ (boyfriend), Amir. Wow.This place are full with neon trees and lights everywhere.Kinda eye sickening at first tho cause to many colors. But it was BEAUTIFUL! :) Caught some pictures. Thanks to Mr. Amir for being the photographer of the night! :D

Here are some pictures that we took! Enjoy!

P/S: I love you.Irfan.

Stalks.

I love stalking people’s profile at Facebook.Lagi susah nak masuk the profile,lagi tu la i suka nak stalk.haha. :) But don’t get me wrong, aku tak stalk profile kawan2 aku.Dah derang kawan aku,buat ape aku nak stalk kan? So,aku stalk profile orang yang aku benci,orang yang buat kawan aku sakit hati,orang yang memang menyusahkan aku selama ni,kadang2 ex ex kawan2 aku ke,ex bf aku ke,ex aku (opps! Tak kot yang tu.haha). Sape-sape je la yang aku rasa aku nak stalk.Aku tengok,satu satu ape yang terjadi kat derang selama ni and then aku buat kesimpulan sendiri.haha. :P

Aku ni bahaya jugak kan? LOL. Tapi,aku akan buat kerja bodoh tu time aku memang tak de kerja nak buat.Stakat ni,aku hanya stalk my.jobstreet.com je.sebab nya aku nak cari kerja.haha. :P Aku dah apply kat area2 PJ,TTDI,Subang dengan Shah Alam. Kenapa Shah Alam,besides Irfan duduk kat Shah Alam,maybe aku pun akan pindah ke Subang this year so aku cari la skali kat Shah Alam. (ye ke aku pindah subang ni?ye ke?skali putrajaya.mati aku~) haha. :P

Anyways,harin Irfan ke Singapore. Aww~ Aku keseorangan selama 3 hari. Hurmp~ Tak pe lah.Harini je masalah handphone saja.Sampai aku naik bosan dah dengan handphone.Lantak la if you wanna sms me,you just sms me.If not,you don’t have to.Dah terbiasa sudah. :) Mau call,call saja.Tak mau,tak perlu.Hehe.

I miss you my sayang busuk! :(

Don’t forget my ole ole.Hihi. :D

You.

What would you do when,

All you wanted so much,

And it is free,

But you can’t get it.

It is a feeling but you can’t get it.

 

What would you do when,

Selfish people surrounds you?

And every time when you expected something,

But it is beyond expectation,

Like a phone call.

You are being left for a very important,

Sleep.

WTFish.

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I really don’t know what to say nor type in here. But i do know that getting even is sweet. I love getting even. hehe. Not for the sake of me getting what i want, it is more to the sake of me and how i feel like when you do that thing and now i want you to feel the same thing like i did before. :)

So now i can smile.Is getting even and revenge the same thing? I don’t know. Perhaps,revenge sounds a little bit harsh while getting even is more soft.But i think it is just the same.

Here’s a picture of myself.I don’t know what to say here in my blog anymore.So,take a look at this one picture.What the heck am i trying to be here? LOL. :P

 

Honk.

I went to Muara Seafood just now with my family.Sorry no pictures as i did not bring my super duper handbeg together with me, just the purse and tumpang my mum punya handbeg instead. ;p As everybody and anybody of each of you guys here know that Muara Seafood is placed just beside the port and we could actually see the ships depart and arrive.

There’s this one big contena ship honking to the port people (i don’t really know the terms here) sort of like saying goodbyes to them. So,honk/horn is really actually a language for one vehicle.

If you honk, everybody will know whether you are trying to say goodbye,or you are angry at someone,or you are not in a mood,or you are in some happy mood and more.

So that is what i had discovered today! The language of a vehicle/ships/boat/whatever.

 

PINNPINN! :D

Omarion – Ice Box

When I first time heard this song,actually I fell in love with the piano sound. I am so into this song for now. The lyrics match me well. Kan sayang? :) Cuba baca betul2 lirik tu,Sayang.Ada kaitan tak dengan kamu? hehe.

 

Fussin' and fightin', we back at it again
I know that, it's my fault, but you don't understand (no)
I got memories, this is crazy
You ain't nothing like the girl I used to know
Good with ma, good with pa, cool with all my niggas
I should try, truth is I wanna let u in, but no
Damn these memories, and it's crazy
You ain't nothing like the girl I used to know

”Girl I really wanna work this out, cause I'm tired of fightin'
And I really hope you still want me the way I want you
I said I really wanna work this out, damn girl I'm tryin'
It's no excuse, no excuse
But I got this”

[Chorus 2x]
I got this icebox where my heart used to be (but I got this)
I got this icebox where my heart used to be (said I got this)
I'm so cold, I'm so cold, I'm so cold, I'm so cold
I'm so cold, I'm so cold, I'm so cold
Why can't I get it right, just can't let it go
I opened up, she let me down, I won't feel that no more
I got memories, this is crazy
She ain't nothing like the girl I used to know
I don't mean to take it out on you baby but I can't help it
'Cause my heart is in the same ol' condition that baby left it
And I, I apologize, for makin' you cry
Look me in my eye and promise you won't do me the same

Girl I really wanna work this out, 'cause I'm tired of fightin'
And I really hope you still want me the way I want you
I said I really wanna work this out, damn girl I'm tryin'
It's no excuse, no excuse
But I got this

[Chorus 2x]
I got this icebox where my heart used to be (but I got this)
I got this icebox where my heart used to be (said I got this)
I'm so cold, I'm so cold, I'm so cold, I'm so cold
I'm so cold, I'm so cold, I'm so cold
I don't wanna be stuck up in this cold cold world ('cause I don't wanna be) [2x]
Don't wanna mess this up better keep your eye on me girl [6x]

Girl I really wanna work this out, cause I'm tired of fightin'
And I really hope you still want me the way I want you
I said I really wanna work this out, damn girl I'm tryin'
It's no excuse, no excuse
But I got this

[Chorus 2x]
I got this icebox where my heart used to be (but I got this)
I got this icebox where my heart used to be (said I got this)
I'm so cold, I'm so cold, I'm so cold, I'm so cold
I'm so cold, I'm so cold, I'm so cold

Such a bad day!

I had such a really bad day yesterday.Starting with the parking searching inside The Curve with Izzati,to letting Irfan waiting for me because i need to pee first and check the back door locked,to my purse left inside the car while we were going to eat our meals and the late start of the ROKET concert.

Such a disaster! But,thanks to Irfan for being so patience towards me although he did get bored of me punching all my sorrows of my bad day today to him. Love you till death do us part,sayang!

*Freaky Sunday!*